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Indahkim Going Sixteen. & I wish to go to College after O's. Please pray for me! :) ♥everything moves, nothing stays. Tumblr me? Tuesday, December 8, 2009
haha, i'm still sad, but idk why i just find today's msn chats sweet and funny. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: ure ok? || indah.kim || says: no... h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: can u tell me wat happen? || indah.kim || says: what do you mean by what happened?): h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: wat made u tix way? || indah.kim || says: bob left me.. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: omg when? || indah.kim || says: 7dec, 12plus.am h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: relax ok u hve to move on || indah.kim || says: why? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: wat cn u do? no matter how much u cry he wont cme bck cmne indah mengangis air mata darah pn....will he cme bck? || indah.kim || says: what if he does? i'm not hoping on it. i'm just asking.. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: if he does then im happy for u bt if he doesnt u hve to move on wit life || indah.kim || says: life, is like a pencil. without him, it's pointles.. ); h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: bt it doesnt mean its the end of the world rite cme on indah....bck to reality.....be strong and move on || indah.kim || says: he was my pillar of strength always there for me to lean on. how do i do this? 7months may seen short as it's not even a yr or two yet but it felt long so long i forgot how it feels like to do stuffs by myself.. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: yeah..and nw he's gone....u hve to build a pillar of strenght out of ure own effort....and once u done tat....u knw u hve overcme smetin u hve overcme smetin u believe its impossible to overcme || indah.kim || says: i want to be happy. but i don't know how to anymore.. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: yes u cn trust in ureself and be strong indah || indah.kim || says: but i don't know how to h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hey....im here aite..... pour ure feelings onto me and im sure u will feel betta || indah.kim || says: idw to burden my friends, i know it's my fight my struggle idw to drag others into it as well. ): h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: bt hey if u dun drag me i will drag myself into it coz as a friend its my thing to make u happy and push away all tat sadness || indah.kim || says: hais.. thanks. (': h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: sure thing wat are friends for rite || indah.kim || says: (: h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: cme on lets chnge ure pm aite smile aite....i wanna see u smilin again || indah.kim || says: *CENSORED M18 STUFFS.* h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: it felt good rite lettin all tat flushed outta u h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahz anymore thngs u wanna flush out? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: anymore? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: anymore u wanna let out? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: did it feel gooood>? than uu keeping all tat emotion in u h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: if u hve so much guts why nt kill me first hahs || indah.kim || says: haha! that's be fun! it'll be mor elike kung fu pandaaaaaaaaaa! haha. you tha panda i tghe lion boinggg! lol. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahz at last i see u laughing hahaz || indah.kim || says: haha. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: boing boing boing defending by usin my stomach aha || indah.kim || says: HAHAHAHA! CUTE SEY THE STOMACH PART! hee. gotta squeeeeeeeeeza that ass panda! BOINGG! lololololol xD h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahahz hey chnge ure pm la haha put it as kung fu panda haha || indah.kim || says: done. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahahz great hope u feel betta today hahaz h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahahz tat was nt my bad side actuali haha || indah.kim || says: yeapp it was your backside! h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: no haha it was juz my normal me ahah || indah.kim || says: =.=' h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hey wat u doin nw || indah.kim || says: chatting otp. u? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: notin im at my aunt hse and ami is comin soon he overnite at my makcik hse haha || indah.kim || says: ehehh! bestnye!!!! i miss you two! haha. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahaz... || indah.kim || says: stood by me when i cried fr bob tat time hee. gembeng uh indah niey =.=" h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: we mit up la tis friday wan?..... haha no la hazri also gembeng u believe? haha || indah.kim || says: awwwwwwwwww! haha. tkpe2, at least ade geng me! hehe. h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahahz yeah2 kung fu panda geng hehe || indah.kim || says: hehe. fri niey? korng gy mane? h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: hahaz nah haz jumpe indah kat tpy ahz kite lepak2 haha || indah.kim || says: oh. ok. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Ya! I maki him alreasy || indah.kim || says: MAMPOS! YAYA! AIYOOO! MATILAH AKU NARIEY MALAM!! hais. what you say? aiyo. Siti Zakiah.™ says: If he scolds you, you tell me. I say .." eh! serious talking you broke up with indah for what fuck reason sia? " He replied ... " asal eh??ahahahaha " I replied ... " stakat pasal she said that you no longer care? " He reple He repleid ... " aah.so, now i really dont care la. haixx " & bob just texted me 'Ape sak kau pe maksod uroh orng laen masok campor..!?' h@zRi_Sc0rPi0_ says: indah dh2 lets nt masok campor k tiz wat happens let it be kalau bob happy gitu mcm then biarkn je we cnnt do anytin indah i gtg anytin text me aite tc mish ya my frnd smile ok byez2 TANG BABY! :D || indah.kim || says: tang.. how'd you get over karen? Alexavier says: heyy It was hard... Althou i smile on the surface but theres a constant pain in me... but over time it gets less painful.. you just have to accept that it's over first and being happy should be your priority... just go and do something you like and take you mind off him... just dont think about it... you can talk to me if you want.. haha, call me or smthg... you helped me quite abit in the past too (: || indah.kim || says: Alexavier says: yeah, i know... it hurts really bad and you wished you could just go back in time... well, you aren't alone at least... El is going thru the same thing... you both will pull thru together okay? || indah.kim || says: Gosh, feels damn shitty.. Alexavier says: yeah... you mind telling me what happened? or you wana keep it to yourself first? || indah.kim || says: neh, i don't mind telling ppl who don't ask me stupid questions, are concsious(fuck idk hw to spell this =.=") of what they say around me & really do care for me. not just to squeeze info out of me and make it a gossip talk. hais. so yeahh, here i go again); last week on a sunday he dint text me fr the whole day i was fine w it i mean i knw his fam probs and all and that he spends time w his fam during his free time so then i texted him this frist translated in malay ; 'Hey baby. So quite the whole day? Whatcha doing? Asleep? Hrms..' he dint reply about 5mins later i texted him again 'Sometimes, it feels like you don't care. Sometimes.. ' that was about 11plus in the night so then at 12plus he replied 'Wat fuk you tryin to say to me!!?' 'I just feel that way, ok?' then we fought la from there using ajectives like fuck, fucking, damnit hais. first time siol i mean whenever he fight bob'll just let the matter be first, and not talk to me in the mean time, til he's cooled down, then talk about it i guess he just lost it this time, & so did i): he thought i said he dint care was about him not caring about me as he dint msg bt that's not it really. it's just that the week before we planned to meet on a tues on that day he called me up cancelling it as he's gg out w his fam then ok lorh he comprimised w me promising he'll make up fr it and wants to meet me on wed bt i had camp dance camp so he was like, ok then after camp maybe then i was like ok(: then after my camp, he couldn't meet me); gg out w fam again so, nvm la. his pp8 was long low. rmbr i asked you to help top up? yeahh. Alexavier says: yup || indah.kim || says: it got so hard to contact him la i mean whenever i text if he's hm he'll use the hs phone to call me or if he's out w his friends, he'll use my godbro's phone, jaryl, dorna's ex. so yeahh, that week was cancelled and cancel la til the next wk i mean that weekend after not hearing frm him fr days he called me using jaryl's phone saying his at a chalet and stuffs god i missed him hais. so then the next week he pushed the date over to meet as he keeps gg out w his fam and it keeps getting cancelled): he wanted to meet me on a monday bt i had a reunion w my dance mates at sentosa asked him to tag along he dint want to so he said tues la then i was like ok tues came cancelled again as he's gg out w fam in minutes time he promised me the next day which is tmr wed i manage to get his pp8 topped up then he called saying thanks fr the top up and all and that he apologised that we're nt meeting as he's out w fam alrd. and he said tmr the which is thurs this had been gg for two dman weeks cancelling la! bt i played cool i understood fam first. (: so then thurs came i texted him he said he's gg out w fam i was like ok la. then at night about 7plus? dorna was otw hm frm animation she coincidentally took the same bus as bob! hais. they said hi to each other and stuffs. i wasn't mad la but then like no fair): he in the afternoon about 6 went out w fam? 7 out w friends? then all that hours before? morning til 6? he could hv met me fr awhile right? i mean we only live across the rd! a 5min thing would hv been nice bt no. i dint mention to him that dorna saw him i was out to east coast w fam so i texted him i was out to ecp w fam and asked where was he he tols me he was celebrating his friend's bdae hais. he dint even bother to make up fr nt meeting anymore til the next week that sunday i texted him and he misunderstood it we fought); then from sun-wed i dint text him thurs night i texted him i was like i'll be gg m'sia lah. he dint reply wed morn when i was about to leave alrd i texted him no reply also. when i got back i was like, 'Hey. I'm back. Goodnight. he was like y are you telling me all this? then i was like why not? he dint reply can we pls talk bout this? he dint reply i called him he dint ans finally he texted me 'I'm working right now. Msg you tmr. Btw, between you and me, there's nothing gg on anymore. Goodbye. Take care.' i tried telling him not to leave and to gv a chance to explain stuffs he dint want to and that he has made up his mind and that the decision's final); am i boring you? Alexavier says: nope, i am reading.. || indah.kim || says: hais. so yea then the nxt day which was like yest i texted him at 11am 'Hi bob(: are you free to talk?' at 6pm he replied 'Ya...wat is it..?' & i was like 'Nothing, just wanted to ask how you are' 'Ohk...' 'What happened between you and me?' 'Its juz gone...ohk...i dun wan 2 talk about this...i'm bz...i'm goin to work nw...don msg me...bye...' 'No wait! Are you ever coming back? );' 'Idk...' 'Ohk); if you need antg, just ask me. doesn't mean we're not tgt anymore, i dont care. Goodbye. Have fun at work today.' hais. it finaly sunk into me it's over gone. )'; i cried like a mad piggy last night cried myself to sleep and woke up this morning crying too. asked my godbro if he'd seen bob he was like ya and i was like, did he say antg? jaryl was like, no, all the way he was laughing and joking arnd w us. that just.. idk it really felt like aiyo idk la you knw hw it feels like. (: aite, i'm done sorry): Alexavier says: haha, nah.. don't say sorry (: It's okay.. Well, smtimes boys are like that... they just don't have "feeling" anymore... so whats your final desision? To try to get him back or to let it go? || indah.kim || says: hey chill. it has only been 24h hais. Alexavier says: haha, okay, sorry.. well, no matter what your final desision is.. it's best not to comunicate with him now... maybe he is irritated and needs some space? things can happen... and even if it's not that not comunicating with him gives you space and time to forget as well... try to put away stuff that reminds you of him... and if you really need to, sit down alone and grief about the good times as well and accept that it's beautiful but gone... but dont grief too long... you need to let it go... take your mind off it... have a good laugh.. hang out with friends... el, kalai and I are meeting up this friday... you can come too! || indah.kim || says: but dorna's not gona me there nat's not gona be there there's no us anymore. andddddddd! try to put away stuff that reminds you of him. how to? when even in the comforts of my own home, reminds me everything of him from my bedroom, the toilet, the sofa everything.. i can't possibly throw them otu? out* it's like throwing myself out of the hs it's the only thing i have as prove he was here what we had was real and that my memories were not made-up Alexavier says: yeah.. well, I think for now, you need space and rest.. you are still in quite a mess and you haven't gotten over the shock... maybe about 3-4 days from now you will be able to clear your thoughts alil.. then you can start to try to be happy and recover... || indah.kim || says: Alexavier says: it hurts really bad, as if someone just ripped off a part of you and you cant stop bleeding... I know how it's like... just cry it out, makes you feel better... and you might have dreams of patching back (which I did every night) and you wake up crying and feeling like it's all over again... try to shake away from it once you are awake... || indah.kim || says: i dreamt we patched back last night.. Alexavier says: hmm.. these dreams will haunt you until you decide to leave him for good... :/ I had these dreams on and on.. until i rejected her in the dream... and thats when the dreams stopped... but you must be strong enough to do that.. I think for now you just let it be first... Indah.. the world seem to be crashing down on you right now.. but things will be better.. btw, i used to search "overcoming a break up" on youtube when i broke up with karen... theres alot of good advice there.. || indah.kim || says: hais. i'll try... Alexavier says: yeah.. trying is good.. it's really hard.. but when it comes to times like this, only you can help yourself.. others can only advice... sometimes you wish there was panadol break-up or smthg you can get from woodbridge.. but there isn't... || indah.kim || says: hehhh! yeahh mannn. FIQQY! :D guy add me at fwenster says: yo indah ! you guys broke up ? || indah.kim || says: yeahh. guy add me at fwenster says: wtf wht happened ? || indah.kim || says: i'll copy paste the story frm where i told my friend just mins ago.. guy add me at fwenster says: ouh oke looks like masok briter huh || indah.kim || says: heh neh, i don't mind telling ppl who don't ask me stupid questions, are concsious(fuck idk hw to spell this =.=") of what they say around me & really do care for me. not just to squeeze info out of me and make it a gossip talk. hais. so yeahh, here i go again); last week on a sunday he dint text me fr the whole day i was fine w it i mean i knw his fam probs and all and that he spends time w his fam during his free time so then i texted him this frist translated in malay ; 'Hey baby. So quite the whole day? Whatcha doing? Asleep? Hrms..' he dint reply about 5mins later i texted him again 'Sometimes, it feels like you don't care. Sometimes.. ' that was about 11plus in the night so then at 12plus he replied 'Wat fuk you tryin to say to me!!?' 'I just feel that way, ok?' then we fought la from there using ajectives like fuck, fucking, damnit hais. first time siol i mean whenever he fight bob'll just let the matter be first, and not talk to me in the mean time, til he's cooled down, then talk about it i guess he just lost it this time, & so did i): he thought i said he dint care was about him not caring about me as he dint msg bt that's not it really. it's just that the week before we planned to meet on a tues on that day he called me up cancelling it as he's gg out w his fam then ok lorh he comprimised w me promising he'll make up fr it and wants to meet me on wed bt i had camp dance camp so he was like, ok then after camp maybe then after my camp, he couldn't meet me); gg out w fam again so, nvm la. his pp8 was long low. rmbr i asked you to help top up? yeahh. Alexavier says: yup || indah.kim || says: it got so hard to contact him la i mean whenever i text if he's hm he'll use the hs phone to call me or if he's out w his friends, he'll use my godbro's phone, jaryl, dorna's ex. so yeahh, that week was cancelled and cancel la til the next wk i mean that weekend after not hearing frm him fr days he called me using jaryl's phone saying his at a chalet and stuffs god i missed him hais. so then the next week he pushed the date over to meet as he keeps gg out w his fam and it keeps getting cancelled): he wanted to meet me on a monday bt i had a reunion w my dance mates at sentosa asked him to tag along he dint want to so he said tues la then i was like ok tues came cancelled again as he's gg out w fam in minutes time he promised me the next day which is tmr wed i manage to get his pp8 topped up then he called saying thanks fr the top up and all and that he apologised that we're nt meeting as he's out w fam alrd. and he said tmr the which is thurs this had been gg for two dman weeks cancelling la! bt i played cool i understood fam first. (: so then thurs came i texted him he said he's gg out w fam i was like ok la. then at night about 7plus? dorna was otw hm frm animation she coincidentally took the same bus as bob! hais. they said hi to each other and stuffs. i wasn't mad la but then like no fair): he in the afternoon about 6 went out w fam? 7 out w friends? then all that hours before? morning til 6? he could hv met me fr awhile right? i mean we only live across the rd! a 5min thing would hv been nice bt no. i dint mention to him that dorna saw him i was out to east coast w fam so i texted him i was out to ecp w fam and asked where was he he tols me he was celebrating his friend's bdae hais. he dint even bother to make up fr nt meeting anymore til the next week that sunday i texted him and he misunderstood it we fought); then from sun-wed i dint text him thurs night i texted him i was like i'll be gg m'sia lah. he dint reply wed morn when i was about to leave alrd i texted him no reply also. when i got back i was like, 'Hey. I'm back. Goodnight. he was like y are you telling me all this? then i was like why not? he dint reply can we pls talk bout this? he dint reply i called him he dint ans finally he texted me 'I'm working right now. Msg you tmr. Btw, between you and me, there's nothing gg on anymore. Goodbye. Take care.' i tried telling him not to leave and to gv a chance to explain stuffs he dint want to and that he has made up his mind and that the decision's final); am i boring you? Alexavier says: nope, i am reading.. || indah.kim || says: hais. so yea then the nxt day which was like yest i texted him at 11am 'Hi bob(: are you free to talk?' at 6pm he replied 'Ya...wat is it..?' & i was like 'Nothing, just wanted to ask how you are' 'Ohk...' What happened between you and me?' 'Its juz gone...ohk...i dun wan 2 talk about this...i'm bz...i'm goin to work nw...don msg me...bye...' 'No wait! Are you ever coming back? );' 'Idk...' 'Ohk); if you need antg, just ask me. doesn't mean we're not tgt anymore, i dont care. Goodbye. Have fun at work today.' hais. it finaly sunk into me it's over gone. )'; i cried like a mad piggy last night cried myself to sleep and woke up this morning crying too. asked my godbro if he'd seen bob he was like ya and i was like, did he say antg? jaryl was like, no, all the way he was laughing and joking arnd w us. that just.. idk it really felt like aiyo idk la you knw hw it feels like. (: aite, i'm done sorry): guy add me at fwenster says: hey hey no srries *sorries look , if a fight broke out , it means both are at fault at a certain point nt jsut one so don't blame urself aites ? u want me to go there and gve u a hug or smtg ? yo in , u there ? yo in , u just gt back here in singapore you shouldnt be this sad yeah true the bastard left you but yo ! its his lost ! u may be big . but u have a bigger heart yaw ! the bigger the girl , the more love they give. true not ? nehmine . ur martian friend is here we'll go through this together yo ! with your sylvester salone friend || indah.kim || says: fiqqy, iloveyou. guy add me at fwenster says: sup yo || indah.kim || says: guy add me at fwenster says: hahah yo yo yo || indah.kim || says: no one had said that to me thanks. guy add me at fwenster says: fiqqy loves you too big mama ! || indah.kim || says: &yes i want a hug guy add me at fwenster says: hahaha said what ? idk wht i say ? i need some carbon dioxide ! hahahaha just beep me if u need company ill go down to meet you wherever u live at . haha || indah.kim || says: awwwwwwww. tmr cn? hee. ;D guy add me at fwenster says: bsk wed eh hmm .. tmr gt training uh .. hmm shit canner eh hmm kk tk per i wnt go training but cn u meet me in the morning ? || indah.kim || says: NOOO! you go fr your training! oke? tkmo laah skip2 hrms. guy add me at fwenster says: aper || indah.kim || says: next time maybe? guy add me at fwenster says: its only for a day || indah.kim || says: erm. guy add me at fwenster says: dun worry || indah.kim || says: thurs? O.o guy add me at fwenster says: besides im going for street soccer in the noon ;D u sure ? hey i cn come down tmr really no worries bout tht || indah.kim || says: nooooooooooooooo~ dont want you to skip trainingggggggggggggg guy add me at fwenster says: btol ? tk menyesal ? where u live ? k training ends at 11 latest . then street start at 3 so i have around 2 hours free u want me to meet you during the interval ? || indah.kim || says: where would you be? guy add me at fwenster says: wht do you mean by that ? im at singapore but im going back to my planet mars soon || indah.kim || says: =.=" guy add me at fwenster says: so . while im still on earth specifically singapore || indah.kim || says: FIQQQ! guy add me at fwenster says: why dun i meet u first || indah.kim || says: hahahahaha xD guy add me at fwenster says: hahahaha yes yes ? kk serious serious haha so u were saying where wouldi be wht u mean by that big mama ? || indah.kim || says: lol. like, where la? pasir ris? blaah? guy add me at fwenster says: ouh hahah jauh nah bukit panjang lah ahha u ? toa payoh isit ? || indah.kim || says: yeapppppppp. tpy. guy add me at fwenster says: hahaha not bad nt tht far but yeah far hahaah u wanna meet me awhile ? give u hug then i go terbang back to mars hahahahaha ! gurau gurau || indah.kim || says: haha xD dont want laaa. next time? (: guy add me at fwenster just sent you a nudge. guy add me at fwenster says: haha kk thursday ah thurs im fre and will be mendak hahaha tpy ader gym >? || indah.kim || says: yea. tpy gt gym.. fiqq, jumpe friday boleyh? guy add me at fwenster says: ouh coool yeah sure np wht time ? || indah.kim || says: idk yet. you were first to suggest meeting me w/out me asking shortly, my other friend too. then my ex also. guy add me at fwenster says: u see || indah.kim || says: my ex who's my first love actually. guy add me at fwenster says: this proves tht u have such good friends ( : || indah.kim || says: but it's not fair. it's all guys)'; guy add me at fwenster says: serious uh ? this shows tht guys are more loving nyeahahah ~ some apparently || indah.kim || says: haha. aww(: only one out of my many2 gf's cried otp when i told her me and bob were done.. hais. guy add me at fwenster says: why bob i mean why the name bob || indah.kim || says: causeeeeeeeee when he was young guy add me at fwenster says: its like a dog's name || indah.kim || says: he was fat =.=" guy add me at fwenster says: no offence || indah.kim || says: &ppl called him bob frm there haha guy add me at fwenster says: oooo || indah.kim || says: yeapp! guy add me at fwenster says: coool || indah.kim || says: bob dog! i loveeee that sweet lol xD guy add me at fwenster says: hahaha the ciggarette look a like sweet haha || indah.kim || says: haha! yeapp dulu kecik2 k1 k2, step uh siaaa ade bob dog guy add me at fwenster says: step isap rook with the sweet || indah.kim || says: hahahaha! guy add me at fwenster says: hahahahahah || indah.kim || says: bukan maen lagy dulu! hahahahahahahahaha xD guy add me at fwenster says: hahahahaha tu lah sorry klau lmbt rply was watching mentalist hahaha || indah.kim || says: haha, nvm. (: guy add me at fwenster says: hahaha k back ;D || indah.kim || says: (: guy add me at fwenster says: da mkan ? || indah.kim || says: dahh. fiq, i just realised i kene busted rabak2 guy add me at fwenster says: why why why ? || indah.kim || says: his ex, zakiah's helping me w stuffs hais. he lied to me he said he and zakiah fucked 3times all that shit bt padehal no? &when zakiah first got to knw me and when she found out me and bob att she text bob tanye khabar all bob said to yaya that he's single? i was like.. used? guy add me at fwenster says: hey hey fuck tht due he cn go and die or wht so ever who cares bout him you you don't give a shit bout him no more he dump u so you should dump tht fucker off too aites ? hear me out || indah.kim || says: i wana crash in a hole and just cry and never come out to face the world ever again guy add me at fwenster says: ure gonna get a better guy one day aites ? || indah.kim || says: guy add me at fwenster says: don't be stupid come on || indah.kim || says: why must this happen to me? guy add me at fwenster says: just bcos of one lost u wanna loose everything c'mon in || indah.kim || says: i don't want this!! guy add me at fwenster says: then don't all you gotta do is ferget bout him and move on its no easy task but hey friends are here keep urself occupied get a new life || indah.kim || says: i want to.. bt idk how guy add me at fwenster says: slowly big M slowly u gt us US friends its a powerful tool u knw ;D || indah.kim || says: aww.. thanks fiqqy); be my lepak buddy? i gt no one to lepak w.. loner, i knw)'; guy add me at fwenster says: hahahaha yeah sure no prob im ur martian alien friend || indah.kim || says: (: guy add me at fwenster says: hahah || indah.kim || says: (: guy add me at fwenster says: ( : tgh buat per tuh || indah.kim || says: hais. heartbreaking? lol. physically, chatting blogging. you? guy add me at fwenster says: ouh i see hey chill aites ? me ntg much haha || indah.kim || says: haha. dabes da citer? O.o guy add me at fwenster says: da hahaha || indah.kim || says: haha. ok(: guy add me at fwenster says: yeah hahaha bt sleeping ? || indah.kim || says: ? guy add me at fwenster says: *nt haha || indah.kim || says: oh. haha later blog first. mcm happening ni malam. lmao. amek kau ex.boyf! hee. guy add me at fwenster says: hahha i dun understand at all haha || indah.kim || says: read my blog in a while. (: fiqqy™daisuke says: haha sure Siti.Zakiah! :D Siti Zakiah.™ says: Hey. You okay? || indah.kim || says: Hey. Struggling through maybe); thanks fr asking. (: Siti Zakiah.™ says: Fought with Hakim? || indah.kim || says: how'd you know? Siti Zakiah.™ says: It seems to be involving Hakim, right? Hahaa || indah.kim || says: heh, yeahh. seems a tad obvious aye? Siti Zakiah.™ says: Yeah, fucking obvious. What he did to you? You guys still together, right? || indah.kim || says: He got pissed. &no we're not. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Pissed about what? He ask ahhh? || indah.kim || says: Well, i said he din't care anymore one night. &he started fuming up so did i. so it was war. -.-' well, yeahh bt nt rly asked la, more like a statement so no arguments -.-' stupid. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Wahsiao! You should fight back what. || indah.kim || says: I did lorh. he kept pushing me away. what am i to do? knock on his door? stalk his workplace? idw to seem desperate. ): Siti Zakiah.™ says: I wanna asked you .. he's been busy lately or what? || indah.kim || says: yeahh, w fam. now, work. why? O.o Siti Zakiah.™ says: He is? Hmm .. sorry to say this la, but when he's with me, why he can cope with stuff? || indah.kim || says: like how? well, firstly, i guess i'm not a good gf then, secondly, he loves you big time honey. (: Siti Zakiah.™ says: Love me big time? And how you now? || indah.kim || says: ? oh. easy, the way he treats me and the way he treats you. big diff. (: &when he gets nostalgic he spills it out on me. 'i love her more than anyone else in the whole world...' (: Siti Zakiah.™ says: When he's with you? || indah.kim || says: yeahh. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Serious? Oh god! He baru-baru with you and he said like that or dah lamer with you? || indah.kim || says: well, 1st mnth, kiter ok. 2nd mnth, renggang sikit, he bnyk emo 3rd mtnh, he kerje da renggang gile then when he came bck i mean like, da berhenti kerje, it was well. you. (: was it third or 2nd month? hrm. somewhere there i guess. Siti Zakiah.™ says: kORANG DAH BRAPE LAMER? || indah.kim || says: woah, caps haha. besok, sepatutnye 7months. knaper? Siti Zakiah.™ says: That guy ahhh. Wanna scold him! He got contact with other girls?? Tell me everything he did that makes you hurt ... || indah.kim || says: haha! cute la you yaya(; taknak uh! he'd kill me! lol. Siti Zakiah.™ says: He kill you, tell me! He scared of me one laa. || indah.kim || says: haha, kata sayang mah, mestilah takot. lol. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Merepek aje. Faster! || indah.kim || says: godd, you sound like him =.=" carbon copy. only girl version. lol. okaay! aiyooo. well, hrms. when he still sayangkn you, and not me? yeahh, that hurt. like a bitch.. then there was once he aleh2 felt like being sgl again? cause he was like contacting many other girls? i mean like hey! i was bz that time! aiyaaaa. yeahh, i was butthurt bout that -.-' hee. then, idk la, mcm, kiter tgl across the street? nk jumpa pon punyer yg susah. bt, he gt reasons la, family. hais. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Family about what? Fuck sia that guy. || indah.kim || says: tatau laa~ i think you knw alrd kan? financial probs? that stuffs and more? O.o Siti Zakiah.™ says: But fucker sia he. He was in that situation when he's with me also what. Asal he can manage layan me and have everything under control sume. But when he's with you, cock sia! || indah.kim || says: idk lah zakiah, i can;t even compare much w when he was w you and when he was w me, i don't even know you guys bck then. how was it like? Siti Zakiah.™ says: It was like HE WILL NEVER FAIL TO BE THERE FOR ME 24/7! I SWEAR! UNTIL I FUCKNIG JELAK WITH HIM LAAA -__- Cause I dont really love him mah. || indah.kim || says: wow *jaw dropping, eye popping. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Alamak! This anak ahh ... Im so gonna fucking scold him la! || indah.kim || says: Hee. Nothing beats true love i guess? ;D takmolah yaya. you scold him also fr what? ape dapat? hais. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Dapat masok kan kepale otak dyer -____- LIKE CB! Urgggg! || indah.kim || says: relax laaaaaaaaa. (: hais. Siti Zakiah.™ says: I dont like the way he treats you. || indah.kim || says: neither do i. bt it's over nw? right? hais(: ):* Siti Zakiah.™ says: STILL WANNA TEACH HIM A LESSON! || indah.kim || says: hais. do you still hv his no. ? O.o Siti Zakiah.™ says: Ya! I maki him alreasy || indah.kim || says: MAMPOS! YAYA! AIYOOO! MATILAH AKU NARIEY MALAM!! hais. what you say? aiyo. Siti Zakiah.™ says: If he scolds you, you tell me. I say .." eh! serious talking you broke up with indah for what fuck reason sia? " He replied ... " asal eh??ahahahaha " I replied ... " stakat pasal she said that you no longer care? " He repleid ... " aah.so, now i really dont care la. haixx " I replied .. " stakat statement tu jek you broke up with her? kimak! pathetic cb sia kaw. asal kaw niek macam sia? " He replied .. " eh.entahla " I replied .. " dulu byler kaw dgn aku baek.skrg kaw dgn dyer, kaw macam cb sia. bodoh per? dyer sayangkan kaw kan! yang kaw cakap kaw maseh sayangkan aku tu apehal? stupid! " He replied ... " its a fact what.just tell me what are you trying to do? " || indah.kim || says: yaya, tkmolah.. Siti Zakiah.™ says: i havent reply. || indah.kim || says: he just texted me, i rly don;t want things to get worse than it alrd is Siti Zakiah.™ says: dont reply his messages! what he said? || indah.kim || says: bt he thinks i'm using you! 'Ape sak kau pe maksod uroh orng laen masok campor..!?' Siti Zakiah.™ says: dont reply! || indah.kim || says: okaay? but its rude Siti Zakiah.™ says: just dont i fucking go talk to him. jantan ginik, takmo give face -____- || indah.kim || says: hais. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Dont reply. || indah.kim || says: okaayokaay, i won't. but, why are you doing this? O.o no i'm not mad at you. i'm just asking. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Cause I fucking dont like when my ex treats his current girlf so bad cause he still lvoes me. Faham? || indah.kim || says: aite, got it. you mad? Siti Zakiah.™ says: Mad with him obviously! Wahliao! It's like so long already I broke up with him siaaa. || indah.kim || says: wasn't it this yr also actually? O.o Siti Zakiah.™ says: hmm .. ala, early of this year jek. || indah.kim || says: still, a year hasn't even pass. so i guess, first loves are always hardest to forget. don't get so mad until it bothers you, ok? really, i don't want to menyusahkan you. (: Siti Zakiah.™ says: First love? Tipu ahh. Im not his first love. Im doing this to make him fucking realise || indah.kim || says: how'd you knw you're not? your feelings were diff for him than his for you. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Haa. He told me he love this girl once from his school so bad what. -_____- *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* idk! i'm stupid sia. sumpah. but idk la. aiyoo. feels like, i was never good enough.. Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: IM SO GONNA FUCK HI MUPSIDE DOWN SIAAA! || indah.kim || says: aiyoooo, *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: Oh. how many times? Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: *censored&deleted* || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: DONT EVER TALKEDTO HIM ANY MORE!!!!! || indah.kim || says: *censored&deleted* Siti Zakiah.™ says: HE TOLD ME HE'S SINGLE WHEN HE'S WITHYOU .. DO YOU KNOW THAT?! || indah.kim || says: huh?!): Siti Zakiah.™ says: HE THOT I TAK KENAL YOU ... || indah.kim || says: and then? Siti Zakiah.™ says: I DIDNT CONTACT HIM. CB! ANGRY SIAAAAA. || indah.kim || says: he text you first or what? when? what month? Siti Zakiah.™ says: when you tld me that you and him going 4th month. aru2 we get to know each other laa. || indah.kim || says: and he texted you? Siti Zakiah.™ says: I text him asking hows he and stuff. then he said he's single. || indah.kim || says: oh. ouch? ): Siti Zakiah.™ says: FUCK, THAT GUY. CB CB! HE GOT TEXT YOU!?!?! HE WORKING AH TODAY??? || indah.kim || says: after that msg tad, i tk reply, til nw no text. idk? maybe? should be? Siti Zakiah.™ says: tAKMO REPLY DYER ... I FUCK HIM UPSIDEDOWN ALREADY! || indah.kim || says: what you say? can you update me from last you stopped? Siti Zakiah.™ says: recent nyer ... i said .. " ape maksud hakim sia yang hakim maseh sayangkan yaya? kimak! takmo macam cb ah. *censored&deleted*. best ah lu! you're not what i think you are. apehal dgn kaw?? *censored&deleted*! cb, reply my msg laa! " done. He got msg you ,takmo reply! tell meeeee. || indah.kim || says: I replied .. " dulu byler kaw dgn aku baek.skrg kaw dgn dyer, kaw macam cb sia. bodoh per? dyer sayangkan kaw kan! yang kaw cakap kaw maseh sayangkan aku tu apehal? stupid! " He replied ... " its a fact what.just tell me what are you trying to do? " after that msg you replied that? nope, he tak msg me. Siti Zakiah.™ says: i replied ... " for my fucknig sake, i hate the way you treat her. she fucks love you! and you're being like one fucker now! " he replid .. " beh dyer dah buat prangai per. " i said .. "asal dulu aku prangai beh kaw tak mintak break pun? urgg! sial ahhh. " he replied .. " i dont wanna talk about this. busy worknig now. " i replied ... " no fucknig excuse la! i hate you siaa! cb! i swear, i hate you! " teros he tak reply .... || indah.kim || says: woah.. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Why? || indah.kim || says: nanges sia boboi. Siti Zakiah.™ says: Who?? || indah.kim || says: hakim =.=" i think laa. when you guys broke up and stuffs, he cried. lol. Siti Zakiah.™ says: I know. Macam girlgirl. || indah.kim || says: haha! hw you knw? Siti Zakiah.™ says: He message me non-stop. Hahaha Cb kan that girlgirl?? || indah.kim || says: serious pe?!! Siti Zakiah.™ says: Ya ... why? || indah.kim || says: nothing. he loves you like shit. that's all. dint quite thought it was that bad actually. Siti Zakiah.™ says: BUT I DONT. I HATE HIM! I SWEAR! I NEVER DID LOVE HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE! DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT HE MATEY WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACE BCOS OF WHA?!?!?! money!!! || indah.kim || says: money? how come? then da tawu, why you accept? Siti Zakiah.™ says: I dotn know ... our 1st month jek baru tahu. || indah.kim || says: bt how you knw? i heard, whenever he pp8 lo, you top up 10 fr him? Siti Zakiah.™ says: Ya ... being used in the first place huh. Jadi kebiasaan. || indah.kim || says: but, you say tak sayang? why top up? O.o Siti Zakiah.™ says: Cause ... he treats me fucking good! Good as in like ... macam orang kater dyer macam anjng aku. Faham? See! I angry already ... || indah.kim || says: haha xD marah sey. ;D you 10 10 all the way, i top up fr him 128 tau. hais. tatau lah. Siti Zakiah.™ says: 128?!?!?! wah cb. Hahahaha Anything text me .. *censored&deleted* update me anything! if that sundal message you, forward to me his essages! takmo reply him !!!!! || indah.kim || said (11:57 PM): haha, okaay. (: thanks zakiah. (:
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