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Monday, May 31, 2010
I want to let go of you.

Pain stricken - heartache.
How can someone want another, but not want them at the same time?
i don't know.
beats me, i myself can't decide.
*sigh.
I'd long thrown her away out of the picture.
Seems like i was wrong ha? :)
That barrier put acrossed between us, it's still her, isn't it?
Admit it.
I feel this shiz is going no where.
*sigh.
But giving up, would only ..
*sigh.
I don't know how far this might be true, but yeah, it would only lead you to another break-up,
a phase where you're left alone - all over again.
I know you don't want me to go.
cause you still 'love' me.
But i know too you don't want me to stay.
cause i keep getting hurt.
Do you know how much hurt i get whenever i see you down?
You don't know i can see right through you, do you?
You pretend you're okaay,
crack a little joke, and laugh your ass off.
But hey, i've known you for a year now. :)
Don't try to lie.
Sometimes, i feel like crying FOR you in front of you.
I feel like taking away all the pain for you.
I feel like pulling you into an embrace, and whisper in your ear with a light finger gentlty stroking your face from the corner of your eyes to your chin,
whispering; "It'll be fine, i promise. If she can't love you, I can. :') "
But i never do.
Why?
Cause everytime i get that close to you emotionally, you'll push me away.
Then later, you'll pull me back in again.
When i get close again, you push me away!
It's endless!
- stead tak stead, you tetap sama.
abeyh, buat ape lagy i ade kat sini.
kan?
*sigh.

So, i met ex today.
By accident.
Wasn't planned at all.
Malay O's were a tad screwed, but it was ok.
Just a matter of if i can get a distinction for it or not.
Will talk my way for my marks for the upcoming oral.
Ex too had his exams today, but i don't know how it'd go for him. :/
but he'll be fine. :)
Played monopoly w ex and the rest @ bm.
Azul was there. ;D (dahlostchemistrydah~haha.)
Everyone got to know about the amin thing.
Ex kept disturbing me to give my no. away -.-'
aku betul2 bagy baru kau tahu!
Ex did something that totatlly turned me on ;)
cb! apesal pada pandangan aku kau hot setan?! _|_
aku benci kau!
bye.

stated diffs-
*You attend her dance practs and support. :(
*You've never said a single vulgar shit to her, and if you do, she'll fvck you up.
*You paid for her phone bill.
*You paid for her food and drinks.
*You made sure your time was always well-spent and well-thought - enough for girlfriend and friends.
whereas for me? You gave nothing.

9:52 PM








Previously;
  • i'll miss you.
  • _|_
  • I Love Them, All:)
  • Sweetest.
  • I cry. D';
  • Hello Love. :)
  • i miss that.
  • Okaay, i really really miss you now. D';
  • I Love My People! :)
  • I don't miss you, yet. But just your text messages...