Indahkim Going Sixteen. & I wish to go to College after O's. Please pray for me! :) ♥everything moves, nothing stays. Tumblr me? Monday, May 31, 2010
I want to let go of you. Pain stricken - heartache. How can someone want another, but not want them at the same time? i don't know. beats me, i myself can't decide. *sigh. I'd long thrown her away out of the picture. Seems like i was wrong ha? :) That barrier put acrossed between us, it's still her, isn't it? Admit it. I feel this shiz is going no where. *sigh. But giving up, would only .. *sigh. I don't know how far this might be true, but yeah, it would only lead you to another break-up, a phase where you're left alone - all over again. I know you don't want me to go. cause you still 'love' me. But i know too you don't want me to stay. cause i keep getting hurt. Do you know how much hurt i get whenever i see you down? You don't know i can see right through you, do you? You pretend you're okaay, crack a little joke, and laugh your ass off. But hey, i've known you for a year now. :) Don't try to lie. Sometimes, i feel like crying FOR you in front of you. I feel like taking away all the pain for you. I feel like pulling you into an embrace, and whisper in your ear with a light finger gentlty stroking your face from the corner of your eyes to your chin, whispering; "It'll be fine, i promise. If she can't love you, I can. :') " But i never do. Why? Cause everytime i get that close to you emotionally, you'll push me away. Then later, you'll pull me back in again. When i get close again, you push me away! It's endless! - stead tak stead, you tetap sama. abeyh, buat ape lagy i ade kat sini. kan? *sigh. So, i met ex today. By accident. Wasn't planned at all. Malay O's were a tad screwed, but it was ok. Just a matter of if i can get a distinction for it or not. Will talk my way for my marks for the upcoming oral. Ex too had his exams today, but i don't know how it'd go for him. :/ but he'll be fine. :) Played monopoly w ex and the rest @ bm. Azul was there. ;D (dahlostchemistrydah~haha.) Everyone got to know about the amin thing. Ex kept disturbing me to give my no. away -.-' aku betul2 bagy baru kau tahu! Ex did something that totatlly turned me on ;) cb! apesal pada pandangan aku kau hot setan?! _|_ aku benci kau! bye. stated diffs- *You attend her dance practs and support. :( *You've never said a single vulgar shit to her, and if you do, she'll fvck you up. *You paid for her phone bill. *You paid for her food and drinks. *You made sure your time was always well-spent and well-thought - enough for girlfriend and friends. whereas for me? You gave nothing.
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