It's not easy, having to fake that smile on my face.

Having to fake a laugh everyday.

&to keep myself going, just to please the others around me.

I keep telling myself, he's not worth it.

But it just doesn't stick long enough into my head.

I got in too deep.

& I fell.

Down into the bottomless pit of nothingness.

Little did i know, i had many-many hands reaching out to catch me. (:

I won't let this affect my studies and my responsibilities as a daughter, a friend, & as a bestfriend.

Three things that i'm sure about;

-He used me.

-He loves her, not me.

-He was never meant to be in the first place.

I was fooled. Utterly fooled.

What you labelwhores may call it, SweetTalkMotherFucker.

Idk either to scream and yell that i hate you, or keep on fighting for my feelings for you?

They say love is blind.

I never did believe in that as in every r/s i had, i know what i was doing.

But with you, truly, i was blinded.

Through your pure manipulations and empty promises.

Or should i say empty 'swears' for me?

This is just the first stage of my breakup.

It hasn't quite really sink into me that he's no longer..

I think i've said quite enough alrd. (: