School was pretty awesome, aesthetically(:

academically? down the drain bitch. _|_

*sigh.

at times, i feel like giving up.

but i know i don't want to, so long as the finishing line has yet to be drawn, i'mma fight fight fight to the very end!

*wah cheyyh, mcm fhm eh? xD *

had a merepek excercise work out w the whole upper sec early in the morning.

PUNYA YANG BORING OI! boleh jatuh maty sia.

the AV people played track hits on the stereo, :D (to our relief!)

me, dee, tang & el, started dancing and singing while doing stretches.

serious shit la, it was like pin drop silence, everyone did the boring excercises, listening to the instructions.

i mean, are ya'll deaf? no reaction at all to the songs played?

stooooooooooopit~!

we were hushed a lot of times by the other classes on the right side, (ie 4N1 and above.)

but, what the hell, who cares?

if you wana bore yourself to death, then jolly well go ahead.

don't pull us under.

we want to have fun. :D

then, for PE today, 4e5 challenged 3e1 captain's ball.

haha, kecoh.

3e1 got pissed @ us cause i kept screaming goal and that we won *when it was a draw actually*

haha, mcm cb kan aku? xD

alaaaa, no joke no fun what~

pure sciences class, see la, so young, yet so serious.

duno how la ya'll enjoy life in the end.

sticking noses into thick meshes of books?

eeeei-ya!

no life.

haha.

ended sch late today.

had chem test after sch, then f&n remedial(coursework.)

screwed up my test la, study abit only!

hais.

why?

i blame myself for this, for letting situations distract me.

*sigh.

physically, i'm fine.

i can flaunt a laugh real good.

show up a smile any time.

but i know, inside of me, nothing beats.

everything's still.

empty.

:(

otw bck home frm sch today, saw parvish & kamal at block merah.

& so they called on me, & we slacked.

the v second parvish asked, 'so how bob?'

me; *shurgs.*

*parvish's phone rings.*

Parvish; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!

*shows his hp to me and kamal.*

kamal; HAHAHAHA!

Me; Haha xD

why?

bob was calling -.-'

lol.

he was @ home, coming down in a bit.

when parvish was saying the names of who was alrd there,

i signed him not to say my presence! haha.

i wanted to go home la!

& so after he hung up, i stood up to go home,

Parvish; 'Noooo! Where you think you going? Sit down! I need to talk to you.'

-.-'

haha, after about 15mins later,

i turned to the left, i saw gopal coming our way, :D

i looked at parvish and kamal, they were laughing like shit, with the i-know-i-didn't-tell-you-face.

confused, i look to my right, bob was coming our way.

haha, best eh?

both coming in from opp. ways (:

so we all sat, chit chat.

bob parvish and kamal were on the lappy,

gopal was otp fr awhile.

well, long story cut short,

i missed them all.

& i knw there were alot of times where i'm quiet.

like really quiet.

i wasn't bored.

at all, really.

i missed it.

i missed it all.

his presence.

the friends presence.

& hw warm and home-like-feel that i feel when i'm w ya'll.

i wanted it all back.

i wanted to absorb it all. (:

but i couldn't..

it reaps me apart, taking in the hurt,

the difference.

& that knowing that things will never turn back to the way it was before.

change.

it's hard to accept.

i know.

but what am i to do? :(

anyways, thanks guys.

jaryl came later, boy was i happy seeing him! :D

like, finally. (: haha.

& to parvish, gopal & dev,

thanks. (:

haha, stress sia kena kacau by ya'll!

But i missed it, alot.

& i know you saw it straight through me. :/

:')

*sigh.

Parvish; 'He still loves you la indah, i know. We're like brothers from diff mothers alrd sia. Trust me, you'll get him back. If you need help, I will help. But you have to take an initiative.

I Treat You Like My Own Sister Already Sia. '

Gopal; 'You'll Never Find Another Better Girl Than Indah, Bob. Don't Waste Time, Don't Wait Too Long.'

'this two(parvish&bob), in front only step strong, go home alrd uh, sit one corner, emo -.-'

(haha xD cute la :D )

*says to me&bob straight after me and bob joked&talked* 'Ya'll patcha alrd right?! Just that you're not telling!'

*me&bob*; NO!

Gopal; 'When ya'll talk and look at each other uh, it's like there's smtg gg on between you two that we all don't know.'

*i felt and get what you're trying to say, just that i don't knw what the feeling's suppose to be? :( *

Jaryl; 'If you need someone to talk to, i'm always all ears (: '

Bob; *kena disturbs by the whole clique, haha*

Bob; 'You! Tengok uh! Stress sia gini asyik kene kacau!'

Me; 'Asal sia you complain kat i?'

Bob; 'You nye pasal la niey.'

Me; 'Ye la, semua salah i pe.'

Bob; 'Ah, memang semua salah i. Ehh? Ape i bobal niey?!'

-.-' haha.

ohh, 1 more,

*bob.does.smtg*

me; *looks @ bob*

Gopal; *looks @ me, i pretend not to notice.*

Bob; *does smtg that admires me (: haha, *

Me; * smiles @ his action*

Gopal ; AHAAAA! CAUGHT IN ACT! INDAH ADMIRING OVER BOB!

Me; 'Ehh, alamak! Hahahahaha xD *stress* '

hahahahaha, funny sey! (;

ohh, this too (:

Bob; *drinks Gopal's hot coffee*

Bob; 'Ehh, panas siol!'

Me; 'HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!'

Bob; 'Diam uh you! Ketawekan orng!'

Me; 'Haha xD'

ohh, this was funny too, haha!

Gopal; ' ... Hari open up a company'

WHOLE CLIQUE; 'HUH?!!!!!!!' *all bodies jerk forward*

HAHAHAHAHA xD

drama xD

i think i should end here, or else this will never end. (;

haha.

i love his friends. (:

whom of which i treat like my own brothers now. (:

but i love him more.

hais.

goodbye, /':