Ohmygod , i know i dreaded the motivational workshop as i felt it was a waste of time and that i rather be studying for lessons in class, but it actually ended up to be so AWESOME! (L)

Okaay, so let me start this post right again. ;)

Wake up in the morning feeling like P.diddy.. (lol.)

It was raining earlier yest night, thus it was damn cold in the morning on my way to school. Grabbed my denim jacket, and headed out of the house 10mins late. Hehee. Didn't even bother to speed walk to the bus stop cause I know the school gates will be opened til 7.45am instead of the usual 7.20am which marks the latecoming for those who miss the bell by a second or two >:( In the bus, pupils from my school stared @ me. I ignored cause they kinda looked, admired sort of? Since there was no assembly due to the damp and still wet quadrangle the rain left, i went straight to class. Again, the first step i took into the class, a few cliques stared. I was like in my head; What is up with people Today?! I took my seat, placed my bag on the table and opened the window. Damn, it was stuffy! Still eyes on me, i heard whispers of my name. Then wei jian called me out. Syahindah! Omg, is that you? Haha, we thought who sia. Nice jacket. Lol. Pathetic kan? For all the stabbing glares, it was just merely because i was wearing a jacket? Which appealed to them? Haha.

Call me a bitch, but for once i kinda felt abit pretty. Like i appealed to their eyes. I stand no chance being the most "prettiest" girl in class, what more the whole school?! & with my kind of LOUD attitude, i usually have people glaring or turning heads on me for my actions/voice. Almost never for my looks. Haha. I mean, c'mon man, where do i stand wedged in between my friends? Dorang Hotstuff kay? Even if nerdy in school, outside; they burn houses down just by their looks. Me? Haha, boys look at me like the "fuck-able" material. *eyeroll.* Boys, really, is that ALL that you really see in a girl? If she's fuckable to you or not? Ugh, don't talk to me. >:P

Motivational talk was breathtaking. Really, there is no other word to describe it. I had a looooooooot of fun with the hands on and theory lessons. Ernest, our coach, was damn funny! :D & our female coach, leila(if i'm not wrong) was so friendly. Seriously, they're more like friends than coaches! Leila's 19, Ernest about 23? He just celebrated his 3rd anniversary with his girlfriend yesterday and she gave him a ring to wear. He wore it to class and showed it to use during our break. Sweeeeeeeet! & he said he really wanted to marry his girlfriend so much. He's really, the sweetest thing. I really wish boys, to be more alike of him. rather than taking out the bad points, bad influence you see in other guys, making use of girls with money and sex, why not direct that negative energy into a positive one to loving a dear someone dearly?

I know we girls are not so perfect either. But if both sees could just sit and compromise, the world would be a better place:) Afterall, at birth, we are all of the either genders, male or female. & even before WE were born, it was the fusion of a male and female. A fusion of love, sprinkled with a sugar-coating of lust. & after birth, we, individuals, were showered w love and care, by both a male and female. Mother, & father. I know some people don't have it perfect. But you see my point?

Why can't we all just live in peace? Why can't people just accept that every single individual is different? Why do people let the differences of others, affect them? By changing their attitude, then later, their character, soon, their own image?

Wake up people.

& sorry for the rant. Some things are better of said than kept. ;)

To wrap it up, my dear friends out there, who have taken a different path (filled with negativity) from what they were already leading on in the first place, Change. Change BACK to whom i use to know. I want to miss you, but i can't. You're no longer the person i've missed. How? How could i? For all the other girls who are bending their backs for you, you just make use of them and just throw? Sex and money, is that really ALL in your head? I KNOW you're not like this. Change. For your previous Love's mistake, you're punishing the other innocent ones who were JUST about to cross your path.

Just like it wasn't fair for you in the first place, is it fair for them now? The new ones? Aren't the old ones supposed to be punished instead? Why hurt the new and innocent?

iloveyou.