Hee. Honestly, I don't think I'll be smiling and waking up frm tears every morning, looking on the positive side of things and hope for the best that has yet to come if not for my boyfriend(S). :D

Was otp w Hazri til 6am in the morning.

I felt better crying it out on someone.

All the way, I just cried, when haz further explained situations to me.

Oh haz, I PROMISE YOU I'LL STILL BE CRYING ON THE 6TH DAY AND YOU WILL HAVE TO TREAT ME ON A BOX OF CIGGS JUST LIKE HOW YOU SET THE BET TO BE! :D

Free ciggs, sape taknak siol?! ;DD

Dreamt of him again.

Since the 7thDec, I keep having dreams of him.

Even in my afternoon naps.

I'll cry myself to sleep, & i'll wake up, crying.

I'm starting to get use to this, by tmr, it should be nothing new.

I hope.

& so i woke up at 11plus, yaqin texted. (:

just for talktalk.

randomly he asked about my r/s.

kinda broke down abit)';

so he wanted me to meet him.

& i did. (:

Found out that *dog* did smtg bad.

tsk tsk tsk..

shouldn't reveal it here fr yaqin's sake. :D

Afterwhich, when i got home.

haha xD

we continued texting;

*highlights only! hee.*

Yaqin: Anyway.. U look great just nw. u look kinda diffrnt. have u lose weight?

Yaqin: ur more attractive than last time i saw u la. Haha. wats ur secret?

Haha! This really made me laugh ;D

Don't get me wrong, girlfriends are always there whenever i need them.

But right now, i guess they're just bz w their stuffs.

& i know, letting them see how shattered i am inside, will just rip themselves into pieces.

Girls, I Love You.

& i don't want to hurt you.

That's all. (:

Boy, Dee had so much hope on you, on us.

&you just. Tore everything apart.

It's okay fr you to hurt me.

But hurting the others around me?

Now now, that's not very nice isn't it? );

ThankYOU.