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Indahkim Going Sixteen. & I wish to go to College after O's. Please pray for me! :) ♥everything moves, nothing stays. Tumblr me? Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Sykur alhamdulillah, segala rahmat baginya:)  Beautiful.Today's the first day of Ramadhan & I'd fast! Whoo! Made it through the whole day:) Surprisingly, I wasn't hungry at all until the break of fast. (wheyy, mommy cooked like ALOT and the pleasant fragrances of the foods were just so overwhelming my stomach lurched at it, begging me to reach out and EAT! haha xD) Mommý such a good cook I love her. :) So what'd she cook? Well, 5jumbo meat burgers w eggs, mayo and black pepper sauce. Baked fish. Chicken rendang. Chicken curry. Porridge. Brown rice. Hahahaha! Yes, it's a food paradise at every break of fast in my house! I'm just so happy that i'm a muslim:D It's seriously not easy being one, & i admit; i'm not a full-pledged super good muslim. I do have my sins. Both big and small. Both to Allah s.w.t and the people around me. For this Ramadhan, I aim to be a Good girl. I'll try:) Truth is, Ramadhan was more painful yet more meaningful back when you and i were. I remembered us counting down to the first day of Ramdhan. I remembered how super (but still very cute) kanchiong of us to meet almost everyday, to huddle and kiss as much as possible as it would've been a bigger sin to do so during Ramadhan. I remembered how we'd text and text after you've sent me home and until i went to bed. & when Ramadhan finally came, it didn't come between us. Instead, it put us to the test. We avoided meeting each other for as long as possible. We barely touched. (w the exception to just salam) We showed affection in much much more different yet subtle ways it made me cry missing you. Haha. Very the muslimin and muslimah you know! & i liked it. Very very much I liked it. :) My favourite part would be waking each other up every sahur! Though you usually woke up at 4.30am and finished sahur by 5am. By the time i "woke you up" for sahur at 5am as my family usually have our sahur at that time, you'd be like; "I dah sahur pon syng...hehehe...dah2...you gy sahur dulu...nnty msg i...hehehe...love you..." & finally; when Hari Raya Aidilfitri finally came, gosh you got me bawling my eyes out in front of embah with that very surprising and unexpected text of yours. Haha. This year, it feels so .. Empty. :( I'm really trying very hard to try to enjoy myself like how i enjoyed myself with you last year. But one thing's for sure, it's not the same. It'll never be. I wish so much for you to be here again. ♥i didn't thought i'd cry admitting my last line. :'(
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