SHE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PRETTY!

gosh, i lovelove her y'know?

ahaa xD

i've seen prettier girls than me(durh -.-'), & sometimes i feel abit demoralised, not that i'm jealous,

but just abit afraid, cause someone out there must be better than me for him. :')

anyways, i just got back from a three hour long grocery shopping -.-'

stupid lah f&n!

last min sia. ergh!

anyways, dad helped me get some other ingredients that i needed from his workplace :)

nyetttt!

~tak semua tau ade bapak chef xD

ThankYou Dad! ILoveYou :)

& check my coursework soon!

Grrr.

hehee.

So, me and ex haven't been texting much since Sunday Night's incident.

I don't know to be happy or sad?

cause sometimes, the more you know.

The more you wish you didn't. :'/

haha, nevertheless,

he loves me you chibai. :)

don't steal.

HEE.

xD

okaay, just some cutecute/lovelove stuffs/intentions that he has done lately that really made me realise that actually, as much as i loved him, he loves me too. :')

• Brings me along to his Every soccer match. :) *Only Me, No Other Girl ;) *
• Gets mad when he catches me with another guy outside. (even if the guy i'm with happens to be just my cousin -.-')
• Had been very honest with me regarding which girls have his no. *which he actually told me by himself w/out having me to probe him. :) *
• Has been accompanying me THROUGHOUT my Saturdays. :)
• Shares with me his personal stories/problems. :)
• Has always been turning to me for help.
• Has always cheered me up whenever i'm sad, frustrated, or jealous? Hehee xD
• As he hugged me tight in the bus after i got jealous of him checking another girl out -.-'
• Walks with me all the time, proud to have me by him. :)
• Places his arms around my shoulder when we're both standing up with his friends in front of us, talking. :)
• Places his arms around me whenever we're in the bus. :) *nyeettttt! hehee.*
• Stroked my neck gently when we were in a tight embrace :')
• Lends me a shoulder to lean on whenever i'm tired or sleepy :)
• Hugs and lets me breathe in his chest for me to warm whenever i get cold. :)
• Is still willing to accompany me through the nights when i'm all alone, just to put me into bed and so as i could sleep well without getting scared or feeling alone. :D
  (fvcking love him for this! hahahahahahahhahahaha xD)
• & lastly, getting really mad when i asked him, "If it was me who left instead of my friend, the world would still be the same, wouldn't it? "

I know i can be demanding at times.

But now that i've finally sat myself down, and to really look @ the situation,

There's nothing more i can possibly wish for.

Could there?

I mean,

You're always there.

You always care.

&, somewhere there in you, you've always loved too. :')

haha, idiot.

Again, don't fvcking lie to me you want me to leave.

You know it hurts you just as much seeing me w another guy.

*sigh.

But i guess, you had always seen this coming huh baby?

That I Am Leaving? ;'(

Fvck lah!

I really don't want to.

But i can't stop my feelings :'(

This is how i move on.